"Destiny Revealed"

"Everything happens for a reason"....Then why is it that reason often becomes lost in the amiss of reality... The reasons we laugh, the reasons we cry, the reasons we hate, the reasons we love, the reasons we love to hate and the reasons we hate to love....Everything happens for a reason...or is that everything just gives us reason to take certain turns on this road we call life....Everyone perceives everything however they want to perceive it....so how can we leave reason and destiny in the hands of ones own perception of the world...We cant...If we say everything happens for a reason, we're still left assuming what that reason is...God forbid we assume the wrong thing...thats like taking the wrong turn that only leads you to a dead end...people make mistakes....Is it that we make mistakes to detour others from us... or to learn from them and be better, gain knowledge, and grow...Who the hell knows...then again...what is the reason for me writing this epiphany of mine....maybe its just cuz im tired of hearing the phrase that usually comes after "everything happens for a reason"......."If its meant to be it will be."....i say "not without trying".....

"Consistently Unpredictable"

A hand of Texas Hold em... or life?....

My heart is beating as its now between me and him. I am dealt an Ace and King of Hearts.. ..thinking hmm....this could be good. We both put our money into the pot, not knowing what is to come. "Check" says my opponent. The flop is now dealt ...

....damn..all i need is a queen of hearts for a Royal Flush..an unbeatable hand..The ladies have been nice to me all night so I feel confident in getting any queen which would give me a straight which is also a good hand. Its on him...He raises me $100 dollars...Now im wondering what he has...But without hesitation, i see his $100 dollars and the turn card is dealt......."YES!" I got a lady to commit. Tho it isnt the queen with my heart that Ive longed for, I was fine settling, cause after all she was "straight". Now Im confident in my hand. He checks...In my mind I feel like he is just trying to throw me off. So I also check....The river is dealt......Wow...So now Im sitting good with an unexpected flush...5 hearts...one of the hardest hands to beat in poker...He raises me $100...I laugh...thinking he is bluffing....so I see his hundred...and I go all in...Its almost as if thats exactly what he wanted me to do because with no hesitation at all he calls, and goes all in with me...What the hell does he have? Now Im getting nervous...I show him my cards and smile, looking at the queen that gave me the confidence to bet the way I did....then he shows me his cards...

...and he has the Queen that has had my heart all along with a 8 of hearts....Which makes a Straight Flush..The only possible hand that can beat me in this scenario...and I lose.....

They say you can only play with the cards you are dealt. You see life isnt much different than a hand of Texas Hold em. Sometimes we're quick to go all in and give our all, but often make the mistake of settling for something "straight" and "blindly" bet high on a consistently unpredictable matter. Its not always about playing with the cards you are dealt, its about knowing when to fold when you've been dealt a shitty hand. You see he had the queen that had my heart. If I had of played it smarter that round, n let him win without going all in....I would've survived another round and had the opportunity to at least see the queen of hearts in my hands..where she belongs...instead of just settling...

"Once a good girl's gone bad, she's gone forever."

Once a good girls gone bad, she's simply grown into the woman she was destined to be...Its not necessarily them going bad, but them losing their innocence...you see, they always say, "Why are all the good girls taken every time?"..Its cuz once they're taken, they're no longer good..........Drake once said, "Decieving...you are the reason...that I will never find another love that I need."..in fact, its cuz we look for what we want...not what we need...n then we just become trapped in this uncertainty...n learn to decieve...

~ Chuck G.

L.I.E.S.

L.iving  I.n  E.ternal  S.uspicion....L.oving  I.s  E.ven  S.uspect...why is it that we lie? 

J.O.B.

its as if im lettin the beat drop
without lettin these tears do the same
n im askin myself does she still remember the nickname
that she gave me, the day she saved me
from this lonely everlasting pain

why is it that she doubts me
or is it just that she is about she
n not me


I cant blame her for wanting to find herself
even though im over here dying,
beggin for help

the support is like a cursed well,
where the water has run dry
cuz it has been so long,
and friends just say...Chuck why?

Why? I cant explain,
how this girl that drives me crazy,
keeps me sane.

some would say she was just a leaf to my tree
who was jus there to take from me
or maybe a branch, at first glance
but shes much more, you see

to me, she is my root
like Madea once said.
how can i find happiness with her?
without happiness in my own head.

so that is my new J.O.B.
Justify own being
n in time she'll see
that my name hasnt changed,
...Chuck G..........
but im much more of a man than I use to be.

~ Chuck G.